Thursday, July 24, 2008

Law of Attraction

Patience,is a vertue .A smile even though your in pain; is infectious.who knows why I was born with a developmental disability?I do know I struggle without any real solid Government aid ,mostly due to not knowing who or how to navigate the system.I also feel social workers and the system are plagued with a work load by client who want an easier lifestyle. What is a disability? the word means :un-able to do.Very few of us are truly disabled.A better focus should be on one's degree's of ability.I have always worked to support myself mostly taking paycuts to have the job.I also have gone to school to achieve an AA degree in Social Services despite have moderate LD. There is a theory that says one will influence by law of attraction ,what does this mean? I smile ,Iam giving and cooperative but I still am measuredby my not quite average ability which has placed me in an un-equal and psychological depression as to hopelessness and frustration.I have played w/many Stars in my pursuit of my dreams:The late :Waylon Jennings In 82,Mac Wiesman 81,JJ Cale On a Jam in76.I have loved every minute But I still haven't achieved a consistancy in the music field people want "Blonde hair ,Blue eyed and moderately talanted 19 yr. olds.! All I have ever asked for is a ligitamate chance to live my dream and be self sufficient. I will someday meet some one who judges on heart ,and desire and talent . Go after your dreams ! Never Give In or Up.Your Dreams are important too.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

believing you are the best: attempt ,adapt and overcome

I remember once somebody told me ,I was a dreamer and reality was I needed to just accept my short comings.I was so pissed I went out and performed for free at a local pub.I was asked back and the owner said "why are you limping?" I have Cerebral palsy" I replied.He feed me. after my gig he took a tip jar and said give this boy a hand with his gear and reach into your wallets ,he's disabled and trying to be self supporting. That was 25 yrs ago and thats what I remember unfortunitly our attitudes have changed the "me" generation has forgotton about being grateful for opportunities ,"Rights" seem to be more important then compassion ,helping someone less fortunate then yourself.We (differentlyabled) can be the voice of change by Networking and getting envolved politcally in both State and Federal bodies. I have been blessed with Cerebral Palsy ,because I am an inspiration to many People some I do not know but have heard from reliable sources. My cd is a good example of goodness of others it was done for free and played on Wolf 97.4 fm in Prince George B C Canada.Faith and getting out there works .Yet sometimes the road gets confusing when your body ,brain doesn't seem to fire properly.I do get tired and all of a sudden !......... I can't remember where I am or my legs start shaking and It can be embarassing when up on stage!!!! but all in all I say all is good when you let people know what you need and want dreams are reality if you are willing to go through the fire to to yourself that you can god bless ,The "California Kidd" "Never give in or UP!"

Monday, July 21, 2008

nothing comes from wanting but doing

I am lucky My parents adopted me in 1973 after being their foster child for 7 yrs.The one problem being in care is: institutionalization.In this type of environment my needs were met but my social skills and self efficacy skills were not nutured.Being disabled I soon realized I was different and no one cared about my sense of self worth.All humans need nuturing and positive re-inforcement while in their pre cognitive learning stages.We should be more active in goal setting and allow children in care to become more self determined to choices.If social services had taught me to ask for things and allowed me to make choices rather then just controlling lives and being the "all knowing" state agency.Ibelieve with no uncertency that I would today be more in control and more empowered to take action in self determining my goals and dreams .So when you r wondering what to do when lost or you just dont know where to turn ,call an agency that may deal with that issue and dont allow them to blow you off ,be persistant and understand you deserve better and if you network enough you will prevail.I'm 49 and still going after my dream of being a recording artist .I plan on pursueing and starting a program for disabled musicians to be seen and heard by studio executives as mandated in the federal disabilities act .We need representation at all levels of Government the larger the group the more people wil change policies.